If you've ever been to Cedar Point, I'm sure you've seen those old cars that all the kids like to drive. It's their exposure to the road and boy oh boy are they excited. They aren't in complete control, but they seem to have enough to satisfy themselves. If it wasn't for that piece of metal in the middle of the road, the old Cadillacs would be everywhere.

I feel like the parent in the back seat;in the sense that I am not in control. Whoever is driving this will take me where they please. Now I want to clarify something: I don't believe that some little kid who reeks of body odor is controlling my life. I have given God the wheel. I am just so used to making decisions on my own.

I can see myself being placed between people. It is so very different. I can hear my logic telling me to get away, or do what's more commonly accepted by society. People are showing up that I would never expect to see in my life. I am becoming involved in situations I never had to deal with before. Its just so weird to watch your life happen. There is always a level of participation, but sometimes I feel like mine is below average.

I am unsure whether or not I should be snapping out of this.

i feel horrible.

Well I wouldn't say that I'm back for sure, but its definitely nice to be writing here again. So much happens in a short amount of time and so much of that is forgotten. Maybe continuing to write will help me keep track of my life better.

So since its been such a long time, I'll give my huge audience an update on things:
I am still dating Ali.
I still go to Cedar Creek.
I work at Best Buy and I sell computers.
I still play guitar.
I still drive a 1991 Buick LeSabre.
I have a MacBook Pro now.
I go to Owens.
Lately I've been listening to a lot of John Mayer, Eric Clapton, Robert Cray, and many other guitarists.
I've been thinking about writing some songs and going out and gigging for a while.
I've got what it takes, but I think I need to focus on some songwriting.
I've seen some people playing who are just plain bad and I wonder about it.
I've been trying to figure out what makes a cliche song and how to avoid them.
I've been thinking about a good song to cover.
I've been evaluating many things about my life.
I need to be more self-driven.
I need a new car.
I need more money to pay for things that I need.
I need to be less apathetic.

This was a bad post.